Today, I am blessed to be able to celebrate my birthday. I guess that most women my age might not be so thrilled about the fact that they have turned another year older. Isn’t it funny how, when we are very young, we feel that time is moving so slowly and we can’t wait to be “grown up”. But when we reach “a certain age”, we feel that time is rushing by much too quickly.
I can honestly say that I am more or less comfortable with my age. In fact, I celebrate the fact that I have even reached my age, because there have been a number of times in my life where, “but for the grace of God”, I wouldn’t even be here. You see, I have experienced a lot of loss in my life: the loss of a father and a family unit, the loss of a husband and a marriage, the loss of my home, the loss of my dignity and self-respect, not to mention the loss of several internal organs.
Through some of those darkest times, I suffered the most dangerous loss, that being, the loss of hope. Without hope, there is no point in continuing in the struggle – why prolong the pain? Yes, even as a Christian, I have been in that darkest of places.
Yet, even in the darkest of places, in our weakest of moments, God can and will reach out to us. I know, because He reached out to me. I had reached a point where I just couldn’t bear the suffering anymore. In the midst of the darkest moment of that dark night, God spoke to me, He said, “the enemy is trying to destroy you and your family”. Can you believe that I actually said, “What???” So God repeated the message, “the enemy is trying to destroy you and your family”.
Maybe you think that it was a strange thing for God to say, but God knew my personality. He knew that I was a fighter, if not for myself, then for my children. He knew just the right thing to say that would make me sit up and listen. More importantly, He knew that it would give me a reason and the strength to begin to fight back.
I started to wonder if maybe there was a reason that the enemy wanted me out of the way. Was he afraid that I might be a good worker for the Kingdom of God? What would the absence of my spiritual guidance to my children mean to them in their future?
I decided then and there that I was NOT going to give the enemy the victory! So I “Shook off the dust of my feet” (Luk 9:5) in his face and began the work of climbing out of that dark place. I would like to say that it was quick and easy, but it wasn’t. I would like to say that the enemy has given up, but he hasn’t. The one sure thing is that God has been, and always will be, with me to give me hope, strength, comfort and encouragement.
I pray that you have no dark nights, but if you do, I pray that you sense God’s loving presence holding you and leading you from the dark into the light.
Heb 13:5 … He has said, “Not at all will I leave you, not at all will I forsake you, never!”
Rom 8:37 But in all these things we more than conquer through Him who loved us.
Rom 8:38 For I am persuaded that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Rom 8:39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.