Added Joy

I have recently entered into a new phase of my life – that of being a grandparent. My first born recently became a first-time Daddy making me a first time Grandma! Actually, my husband and I are going to be called G-ma and G-pa because we are the “cool” grandparents – YO YO! We are even thinking of getting heavy gold chains, baggy t-shirts and ball caps to wear backwards. LOL

Although my life as a mother went through some pretty tough patches, I have a lot of good memories about being a parent. I loved doing things with my kids – reading, crafts, baking, nature walks. My favourite time was story time when they would snuggle up to me. I loved hugging my kids!

Like many families, we went through some pretty difficult times. One son wandered down wrong paths and gave me much to worry about and much heartache. When my marriage ended, the other son was angry and confused and distanced himself from me. I watched them make mistake after mistake and my heart bled as I suffered while watching them suffer. I wished that I could just pull them onto my knees and hold them tight like I did when they were small when they used to come to me for help, comfort and protection. All I could do was to continue to let them know that I loved them – no matter what. AND I PRAYED (AND PRAYED).

I continue to pray for my sons, even though they are young adults and now starting families of their own. And I have been praying for my grandchild since I learned of her conception.

I am really looking forward to my role as a grandparent. We get to do all the fun stuff without having to worry about the unpleasant stuff – like night feeding and disciplining. By the time my grandchild is old enough to form her first real memories, we will be retired, and then be able to spend as much time with her as we want (or as her parents can stand to have us around – lol) We will be able to give her our undivided attention, as our time will not have to be shared with working and the day to day tasks of keeping house, home and family.

As a parent, I desired to be the very best but I often fell short of the mark. I hope to be an awesome G-ma but I know that I will probably make some mistakes along the way. I hope to teach her a number of things like knitting, crocheting, sewing, crafts, photography and a love of nature. But above all else, I want her to learn two things – that I love her very much and that she has a Heavenly Father who loves her even more.

Prov. 17:6 Children’s children are the crown of old men… (and women too ( smile))





Ps. 103:17 But the mercy of the Lord is eternal for his worshipers, and their children’s children will see his righteousness (BBE)



Anxious Annie

In previous posts, I have shared about my struggle with mental health issues. I suffer from Generalized Anxiety Disorder and Panic Attacks. I am an “Anxious Annie”. Absolutely not fun – but I thank God that it has been brought under control. I say “under control” because I have not yet manifested complete healing and I must take medication daily to keep the “heebie-geebies” at bay. 

I do very well, even under stress, until a combination of stressors hit around the same time and then my resistance wears down. A new job for me -, and the accompanying pain and fatigue; a new store for my hubby; a first grandchild due any time (there have been some complications); and a son’s upcoming wedding. Underlying all of this has been a prolonged family legal issue which is finally working it’s way to coming to a head, the settling of which could have huge ramifications. 

I think that I have good reason to be anxious! I know that my adrenal glands are working over-time and my stomach is doing flip-flops and my legs have that funny, fuzzy tingling running up and down. I have to keep reminding myself to breathe deeply and slowly and shake off the tightening muscles.

But more importantly, I need to remind myself of something else. As much as I feel that I have a right to feel anxious, I have been told that I am NOT to be anxious – about anything!

Mat 6:25 Therefore I say to you, Do not be anxious for your life, what you shall eat, or what you shall drink; nor for your body, what you shall put on.

I have a vivid, dramatic imagination and unfortunately I often tend to visualize the worst of the “what if’s”. My past has been filled with lots of negative struggles which tends to interfere with how I perceive my future. But we have been instructed not to worry about the future.

Mat 6:34 Then have no care for tomorrow: tomorrow will take care of itself. Take the trouble of the day as it comes. (BBE)

All this anxiety and worrying does not improve our lives or produce positive results.

Mat 6:27 Which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his stature?

There is something positive that we can do when faced with stress, worry, anxiety and uncertainty about our future – and that is to pray to our gracious and merciful Heavenly Father.

Mat 6:32 … For your heavenly Father knows that you have need of all these things.
Mat 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.

Php 4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God.

So I am going to try to remember to do the following every day over the next couple of months: 

I am going to lay my burden down and exchange it for Jesus’.

Mat 11:29 Take My yoke on you and learn of Me, for I am meek and lowly in heart, and you shall find rest to your souls.
Mat 11:30 For My yoke is easy, and My burden is light.

And I am going to pray, with supplication AND thanksgiving, to my Heavenly Father. Would you be my prayer partner?

I am feeling better already! 🙂