Identity Crisis


When Moses was on the mountain talking to God, who was in the form of a burning bush, Moses asked who he should say had sent him with a message to Israel. God answered:

 Exo 3:14 And God said to Moses, I AM THAT I AM.

Wow! What an incredible sense of identity!

I have always struggled with the issue of “self”. As a “people pleaser”, I have always tried to accommodate other’s; have always “adapted” myself to the person(s) or situation. I was an internal “shape shifter”. I tried very hard to be the daughter, wife, mother, friend, employee, and Christian that I thought everyone, including God,  wanted me to be. I built my life around what I could do and be for others.

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When the world of my life collapsed around me, my life changed drastically, and I lost all the identities in which I had been living. I was no longer a wife. My children had left home so I was no longer a parent. I lost my home so I was no longer a home-maker. I had to move away so I was no longer a member of my community, a neighbour or a friend. And I had to leave my church and my ministry so I was no longer a leader.

I felt cast adrift and completely lost.

After a while, I decided to try to make the best of the situation by taking the time to try and figure out who I really was inside and who I wanted to be. I wish that I could say that I had an epiphany and got it all figured out – but I didn’t.

However, I was greatly helped when I discovered a list of verses from the Bible which outlined the Truth of who and what I am in Jesus Christ. Here is a list of  “I AM” statements from Neil Anderson’s “Living Free in Christ”:

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I think that I should print this list and stick it somewhere I can read it every day in hopes that it might finally sink into this thick skull of mine!

I pray that we all will stop carrying around false ID!




The Princess and the Pea

When I was a young child, my mother often read a fairy tale called, “The Princess and the Pea”. It was about a King who wanted to make sure that his son, the Prince, married a true Princess. Apparently, a “true” Princess was extremely delicate and sensitive. To test for these qualities, the King forced the visiting Princesses to sleep on one hundred feather mattresses that had been placed overtop a small dried pea. One of the “lucky” gals spent a sleepless night, tossing and turning and finally got up bruised due to having slept on a hard “lump”. Et voila! The Prince found his true Princess – and of course they were married happily ever after! (bah – humbug!)

I never imagined that I would have much in common with that poor, delicate flower of a princess, however, years of suffering with fibromyalgia(FM) has definitely allowed me to bond with the poor gal. My “tender points” (as they are called) can be so “tender” that if there is a wrinkle in the sheets or a seam in my pj’s, my poor princess body is in pain. It has even been so bad that I have had to wear my underwear inside out (heaven help me if I am unconscious and someone calls an ambulance!) or not wear any at all under something soft, loose and flappy (wait-that’s a description of my body!)

Aside from being able to identify with the “Painful Pea” aspect of the story, I have discovered, much to my surprise, that I can also identify with the Princess’s “royal personhood”. You see, I am a Princess too! (But not the spoiled rotten kind). Unless my family tree contains a relative born “on the wrong side of the blanket” that I don’t know about, I was not born into an earthly Royal family. And I don’t think that my earthly father ever regarded me as “Daddy’s little Princess”. But I have learned that my Heavenly Father, Abba, does indeed regard me as His Princess.

Rom 8:14,15   For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons (and daughters) of God. For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.

You see, once I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Saviour, I exchanged my earthly bloodline for a royal bloodline. When I became “born again”, I was born into the spiritual bloodline of Jesus Christ.

Gal 3:26, 27   For you are all sons (and daughters) of God through faith in Christ Jesus. For as many as were baptized into Christ, you put on Christ.

Heb 3:14   For we are made partakers of Christ, if we hold the beginning of our confidence steadfast to the end, …

Through our faith in Jesus Christ, we have been given the right to share in His rights and inheritance as The Son of God.

Rom 8:16, 17   The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of GodAnd if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint-heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together.

Through the blood of Christ, we have been made members of “The” Royal Family.

1Pe 2:9   But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for possession, so that you might speak of the praises of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light;

Rev 1:5,6 …   To Him (Jesus) who loved us and washed us from our sins in His own blood,  and made us kings (and princesses!) and priests to God and His Father, to Him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen.

Blessings, H.R.H (Her Royal Highness) Princess Shari (I’m off to polish my crown)